Whew! What a Week

Hey guys sorry its been a while lol. But What a week we have had, First my boyfriend got sick Last Wednesday then my son Elijah got sick on Saturday and on Sunday my son Samuel started running the fever so we decided to go to the hospital. Both boys were Diagnosed with Strep so we had to kick it in the butt while it was still early. Elijah wound up missing school yesterday to be safe because he had the worst of it all. Thankfully both kids are finally better but still on their antibiotics so that we make sure we get rid of it all the way so that Christopher don't get sick as well as my mom and Breanna. Things have been going great so no fear with anything there. It is Wednesday so Its Christopher's dads day to come and pick him up so we will see if he actually does it! Really I'm not going to call him to see if he is coming though I'm going to leave that up to him.

I hope everyone has had a good week other than my kids getting sick as well as my boyfriend. Things were crazy for the weekend but we managed to get through it like we do everything else. As long as you stay positive about everything you do then you will be fine. I stay positive on everything here lately because its the only way to go anymore. Make sure that you always tell your loved ones that you love them every single day and night. Never go to bed mad at your kids or significant other because you don't know what the next day will bring at all. Also make sure you take care of your kids every single day because they need you and they love you even if you know it or not. They depend on you to be healthy and eating right for them always make sure you give them those 3 food groups every single day, You want your kids to grow up healthy and strong.

Another good piece of advice I have learned a lot lately, Before you go into a relationship with anyone make sure you love yourself and your good with yourself before you try to love anyone else. I have a great relationship with a great guy that loves me for who I am and loves my sons for who they are as well. Its always nice to finally get out of that pattern you are in with guys and finally find that one person who makes you feel worth every second of their time. Trust me I learned that I first have to love myself before I can love anyone else and that is what broke the pattern of abuse. I'm proud of who I have become since I left my ex boyfriend because I am better off without him. He trys so hard to take me down but he can keep trying because I have found that I am so much stronger lately. Two of my exes are actually still trying to tear me down one is trying to hack my stuff, the other is sending guys from his work to my house to ask me out.. Not happening guys I am stronger than you and I have broke free from the cycle that you have had me in. I hope everyone has an Amazing and most Wonderful day today and Please Kiss your kids and hold them tight cause you never know what the next day will bring.

What a Day!

Ok to start out with my day I wake up every morning Monday Through Friday at 5:30Am and get all 3 boys ready for school. Sami gets on his bus at about 6:40 and Elijah at 7am so then me and Christopher go home and eat breakfast and watch cartoons. My boyfriend found out he is sick on Wednesday and has yet to go to the hospital and I am hoping he does that today. I have felt Helpless this whole time but he tells me that I have helped him more than I think. I know I sent him some Tea last night to help him sleep but his fever was bad from what I am told. I could barely sleep knowing he is so sick and me not being able to take care of him. I love him so much and all I want to do right now is be there for him. Also I have not been able to talk to my cousin Cory in a week or two and I miss him terribly. I have my Bestie Angie who I talk to and tell everything to and other than her I talk to my cousin and tell him everything. I only found out about him last year and I have felt so close to him in this past year. I really need my cousin right now as well as my bestie to lean on while my boyfriend is sick because I need someone to talk to while he is resting so I don't drive myself crazy with all of this.

The boys had a Great first week of school and I am so very proud of my boys. They have been amazing all week except the fact that Elijah came home with a note in his folder saying he has not been listening at all. Which don't surprise me at all, I wish one of my kids would be great in school and I figured Elijah would have been the one to do that.

I need you Angie and Cory.. I wish Cory would finally come visit me so I can meet him and finally have cousin time with him!

Good Evening

Well I know I missed a few days of Writing in my blog.. Sorry its been really busy over here lately. Yesterday we had 2 surprise visitors one of which works with my sorry ex and these guys had no clue where I lived and now all of a sudden they know exactly what trailer I live in and where. It was kinda strange if you ask me. But my son Elijah's dad showed up and that was a very pleasant visit with him. He really is a great dad but even more he is a good friend of mine. Christopher is doing well with his Therapy thankfully and he is getting a little bit of somewhere in that.

Anyways, Things have just been Hectic here and I have been extremely tired seeing as its the first week of school and I am also testing a schedule for myself as well. All the boys like their reward system and have been trying hard to use it better. As for me well I'm tired more than usual trying to get everything on a schedule for all of us but its all trial and error. My boyfriend messaged me last night to tell me that he is sick which he has Strep Throat and our first reaction is oh no we hope I don't get sick or Christopher don't get sick.. I haven't been feeling very well all day so I am keeping my fingers crossed in hopes that I will not get anything from it.

Have you ever felt helpless knowing someone is sick and you really cannot do anything for them? Thats how I feel right now with my boyfriend. I know I can't do anything for him and I feel so lost without him.. I miss him a lot being able to hold him wise. I really do love him for who he is and for the way he looks at me and my boys. So you can see how I miss him a lot when we are apart, He walks up behind me and wraps his arms around me and kisses my neck which is heaven to me. He also does sweet things for me even if he doesn't realize he is doing them. He really is my soul mate for me and I'm glad he came to my doorstep to fix my toilet lol. Yes that is how we met he is one of the maintenance guys where I live and he is amazing.

First Day Of School

Welcome, Today was the First Day of School for both my 7 year old and my 5 year old. They were both Very excited this morning to go see/meet their friends and teachers. Sami Is in the local Alternative school and he was excited to see his friends and teachers again. Elijah went to meet new friends and meet his new teacher today. We all got up at 5:30 this morning and all 3 kids got ready (perfect training for Christopher) We first walked Sami to the bus stop at 6:30 this morning and both boys cried that their brother was getting on the bus. First Chris Cried because he didn't want his brother to go to school and Elijah cried because it was not his bus lol. Then at 7am we walked Elijah to the bus stop and he got on the bus like a champ and this time it was Mommy who cried. I was but wasn't ready for Elijah to leave today.

Both boys came home with Smiles on their faces and excited that they had a great first day of school. I'm so proud of my sons and they are all growing up so fast. Another two years and Christopher will be off on the school bus to school then Mommy will be lost without her babies. If I had a car Christopher would already be in daycare and going to head start to help him prepare for Kindergarten. I missed my boys today but Christopher was pretty much an Angel for me all day today.

We started a new reward system as well today thanks to Christophers Therapist. She made a list called WAY TO GO which includes the following for their rewards...

Listen the First time
Nice Touches (No Hitting)
Be Loving
Follow Home rules/ Do your Chores
Kind words/Actions

Each time they do exactly that they get  a couple little puff color balls that they get to put in a very large jar. When the jar fills up they have the following rewards to work with:

Special Snack
Special Movie
Outside time
Art time

We are going to impliment an art box for the boys that will have different things in it pertaining to art projects. I have even thought about making a quilt for each of them and each time they are good and they fill the jar they get to pick a new quilt square along with their reward for that day/week. I'm so excited to be doing this with my boys and Now Christopher and Elijah are walking around with their backpacks on acting like they are going to school..

Such a Proud Mommy here!

Today is a day of Testing

Hello everyone and Welcome again to my blog. Today is a day of testing with Christopher (My 3 1/2 year old) He refuses to listen to anything I say to him constantly. My sons refuse to listen to me period so we have an Intensive in home team that we are working with. Today is just a stressful day for me and I wish my family had a vehicle cause if we did I would be able to get the kids out of the house and going to the park. I am just stressed to the max today and not sure how much more I can handle.

Now before you Judge me remember I am a mom of a 7 year old, 5 year old and 3 1/2 year old all boys mind you. Sami Missed the bus this morning so his first day of school starts tomorrow instead of today. Tomorrow both Sami and Elijah will be at school for their first day.. I can't believe that my baby is starting school for the first time. I'm so proud of my sons and how far we have come but I know things are going to be coming in trials and tribulations. God gave me these boys for a reason and I aim to teach them to be better kids and to be amazing when they are adults. I also aim to teach them to treat a woman with respect and love them for who they are. They have seen abuse thanks to one of my ex's and they have seen what it does to women. Yes I am scarred from all the abuse I have had in the past years. But I am moving past all of that and getting on my feet..

Yes our family does not have money, or a vehicle to get around in. We are one of the poorest people we know. Poverty is real and it hits people like us, even the best people get hit with poverty.. We pay our bills every month on time and that is all we do anymore. We don't have extra money to do anything with its crazy and its unbalanced.. Every morning I have to be up at 5:30 and have sami Up and ready by 6:30 to get out the door and on the school bus. Then as soon as I get back I have to get Elijah up and ready by 7am and him out the door to meet the school bus. everything right now is crazy hectic and I am trying my best to handle it all. Can't wait for my escape tonight into a game of some sort to clear my mind. I wish I could just go for a nice long walk but I have to be in bed by 10pm so that I am up in the morning with the kids. If you don't mind please follow my blog so I know who is reading!

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Kerbal Space Program

Welcome for all my new readers. I wanted to start my blog this evening with instead of my normal day or how things went with a Video game that I play.

Kerbal Space Program is a great game that has NASA's approval on it. I have not been playing that long but it is a game that has definitely caught my interest. My boyfriend Jarod was the one that showed it to me since I do have an interest in Space and Astrology. I have found the game to be Difficult if you are not used to playing it at all but also I have found it very fun as well as challenging. I enjoy games that challenge the mind and this one definitely is at the top of my list.

Have you ever wanted to play a game that is so amazing and cool that you always want to play it but you don't know how? Well For the next few weeks I am going to dedicate a few hours during the day to play this amazing most Awesome game. I enjoy doing things like that because it is very fun and it helps teach you how things are in space. I am extremely fond of learning how to play this game because not only is it my boyfriends favorite but it is also about space and launching ships. You get to build these ships and then hope they launch into space. You wouldn't believe the views you would get up there its really beautiful. Plus the Kerbal's make it absolutely hilarious especially the first one you fly with Jebidiah.. A really weird name right but you should see the faces this kerbal gives to you when he is flying. He is such a Happy Kerbal all the time.

Last night before we went to bed, My boyfriend and I played a little of the game and he showed me more of what he has built in 2 years of playing. I can't wait to dive back into the game at some point tomorrow and see what all I can figure out about it. Always willing to keep my mind open and learn new things on a daily basis. I hope you all have a great night and I will see you all in the morning!

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A vote on our Christmas Good deed

Ok to explain every Christmas we do one good thing to help families that cannot afford things for Christmas even if we are in need we always find a way to donate to other families. Last year we collected donations of gently used toys and clothing for children and their families for presents. We helped 30 families last year and this year we are looking to do something similar to help families for Christmas. so We need Your help to figure out what we are going to do this year. Here are our Ideas..

1. Opening up a Go Fund me page and collecting Donations for getting presents and taking them up to our Local big hospital and giving presents to the Terminally ill children as well as handing some money to the parents of these amazing brave children for their medical bills.

2. Collecting donations to send boxes to our troops over seas so that they recieve some kind of support and love during that hard time when they cannot be with their families.

That is all we have come up with so far. If you have any Ideas Please comment and share them with me. I am trying to teach my sons that there is good people out there and that they can be one of those good people and help others out.