So the kids went to church this morning all was going great. I decided I wanted to watch God's Not Dead and wow I have been moved by that movie. It sends a powerful messages to all people who have not watched it yet. I do know there are other Religions out there and I know that people worship different Gods. I will not sit here and push my religion on to you at all. But I do say this I am a Christian, No I don't go to church like most Christians do because of my anxiety but I plan on one day just getting up and moving my Anxiety aside and going to church with my sons. I have seen several Moving movies over the years and It makes me believe so much more that Yes there is a God.
The first movie that I have seen that moved me was "The Passion of the Christ" by Mel Gibson. That movie actually made me believe more that there was a God only because I wound up at a Catholic church that I was going to about 8 years ago and had a vision. The vision I had was being in Roman times when Jesus walked with the people. I saw him carry that cross down the path to where he was to be Crucified on it. I watched in horror what they did to him in my vision and I watched his death as it is told in the bible. I watched every second of his pain and felt all my sins be released so that I can be free and repent. From then on out I believed in our savior and I felt an overwhelming joy as I finally embraced him for the first time in my life. Yes I was not a person for church because as a child I went to a Pentecostal church with my aunt. After my Grandma died I felt the holy ghost go through me at church and I was speaking in Tongues with my family around me.
I am a full believer in miracles and the faith that I have.. Things are not always what people make them out to be and like I said I am not here to push my faith on you at all. I am just telling that I believe in God and everything he stands for. I have fully given myself to him and I will not Renounce my faith in front of anyone because of the fact that I know he exists in all of us but there are a lot of us that have lost who we are. I have found myself and with my love and faith with God I know all things are Possible for me and my sons. I will not force my faith on them either but I will encourage them to Love god before they love anyone else. I will help them on their journey in finding him but it has to be their choice to believe. Which I feel they have not lost sight of that because a few weeks ago Sami was just telling me that he wants to be baptized in the church that he goes to.
Things are slowly changing for us and for the better I believe because we will prevail over all the horrors that come with life. We will come out on top of all of this because we are strong and we believe that life will run its course and God will open more doors for us when he is ready to do this. God gave me 4 amazing and most beautiful boys and I am more than thankful for them. I feel it is my duty to teach them how a woman should be treated and that life has more in store for them than what they think it does. God will help us down the path we are meant to be on. I will admit I lost my faith for years and years but I have finally come to realize that I never lost it I just chose to deny it. Now I know that I put my faith and my life in his hands and I pray every single night that he brings peace and love to my household.
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