A crazy week already hehe

Well this week has already started off to be a crazy week for us. Monday and Tuesday are my usual major cleaning days but... Yesterday I tried to spend time with my boyfriend and the kids all day because my boyfriend leaves today for a week. I will miss him but I also have a lot to catch up on with cleaning and stuff. Christopher and I have been at our usual morning routine only with one more thing added for him while I am cleaning up. He has been taking over my beloved Kindle so that he can play games and stay busy while I am cleaning. Today is his dads day to come pick him up but I'm not sure if he is coming or not so I'm not going to hold my breath yet. I promised my Love I would write him at least one letter a day while he is gone so I plan to do that every night before bed so I can include what happened that day for him.

Christopher's Potty Training has been going good with the exception of some accidents both number 1 and 2 accidents. I'm such a proud mom though.. Now Here is news of our weekend which by the way was amazing hehe.

On Saturday I called my son Kaidens dad and I got to skype for 4 1/2 hours with my baby boy. I'm so proud of how big he is getting. Every time his dad wanted him to get off of skype with me he didn't want to. His face was priceless when his dad told him he had to get off. I missed seeing him soo much considering I have had 8 years of barely no contact and now I can talk to him every weekend. I have included a picture from our skyping. I love all my sons so much and I also got to smile at the fact that all 4 of my sons got to meet on saturday as well through skype but still My baby got to  meet his 3 little brothers and they were all smiles. I am so proud of all 4 of my sons and how far they have came in life. I can't wait till I can hold my oldest in my arms again and give him a Giant hug. I miss him so much already but I know I will be able to talk to him again saturday.

News that was Exciting...

This weekend I got a paper in the mail saying that I needed to pickup a Certified letter in the mail from the post office.. I started freaking out really bad because it was from Washington State which is the state my oldest son Kaiden and his dad live in. So I called his dad to make sure everything is ok. Well I got a call back from his dad telling me that they are fine and that its Child Support up there doing that and he told me not to pick the letter up at all. They cannot go after me because I do not have rights to my son what so ever. So yeah I am not even sure how that state thinks they can come after me. Anyways while I was talking to him come to find out he has had a Major change of heart. I can now call my son every weekend as well as Skype with him and Play Minecraft online with him as well. I am thankful to all of this with him, He has really changed and now he is letting me have something to do with my baby boy. I am one happy mom as well as this was a wakeup call for me with my 3 sons here at home. My depression was based on not being able to talk to my son so my function level was only 1/2 of the time. Now I have been doing better and All I want to do is make things better so that I can get somewhere for my boys..

Yesterday was our normal day but I changed it up a little.. Me and Christopher went for our walk as well as when the boys got home they did their chores and we went outside for a while and played.. It did not end the way I thought for so long that it would the boys were Amazing and we had a lot of fun out there. So every day we get up at 5:30am and do all kinds of things throughout the day.. Yesterday Christopher and I cleaned up the house and today we have 3 loads of laundry to fold and at 1:30 we are going to the mailbox as well as afterwards when his brothers get home we are going to go back outside and play with the big blue ball that we have out there.

9/11 the Twin Towers

Where were you when the Twin Towers fell? Me? I was laying in bed sleeping when everything happened. I was living with one of my ex boyfriends at the time and he was at school or work that day. I woke up and turned on the tv to see my favorite T.V. Show which was Passions at the time. That day was hard for so many people loosing loved ones on the planes, in the towers, at the pentagon. This is a  day that will never be forgotten by anyone in the US. I was 17 when it happened and was waking up to get ready to go to work... I worked at Food Lion in Clyde, NC and it was a day that I feared because of watching what I did on tv. I had got to work and started to talk to my co workers about it..

To all the families out there that lost loved ones in this most horrible time. Remember they are watching you from Heaven and they are praying for you as you are praying for them. They may be gone but they are never forgotten!

The wheels are turning in my head...

So over the last few weeks I have been toying with new Ideas and things to blog about with a few Ideas in hand. Now a lot of you already have read what I have wrote but I feel like its not enough for some people and all I wanted to do was give people a perspective into the life of a single mother. Starting to wonder if I should have named the blog differently. Anyhow, I want to try a few new things so please bare with me while I try some new things and of course your input on what I do would be amazing to me. I am going to try to start at least 3 new blogs, One will be for Reviewing books I have read very recently. Two will be for Movies I have watched, Yes I know that one has been played out so much but I want to give my own perspective on quite a few I have seen so far. Now the third blog will simply be a Gamer Mom blog and that would describe the games I love to play as well as the new ones I have very recently discovered thanks to my amazing boyfriend very recently. I have a lot of Ideas and as new ones pop into my head I keep looking at them and writing each good one I have down in a notebook with all my plans in it.

So with everything being said I will be working on that for the next few weeks as well as updating here on how the boys are doing and how life as a Single mom works. A lot of single parents don't get the credit they deserve at all. So to all of the single Parents out there making it on their own with little to no help from the dads what so ever We can do this.. We are stronger than we give ourselves credit for. I have been doing this since my oldest was 2 and he is now 10 and Sami is almost 8 years old. Life will throw us curve balls but we have to fight back with all intentions to keep our lives straight for our sons and daughters. Please feel free to add me or whatever you might want to do. I am always open to answering any questions anyone might have about anything because without your support I am not sure where I would be in life. I see everyone being so strong and fighting back with all their might and you have made me see that maybe I can do it too. I can stand on my own two feet and make sure I can go somewhere in my life.

"GOD'S NOT DEAD" The Movie

So the kids went to church this morning all was going great. I decided I wanted to watch God's Not Dead and wow I have been moved by that movie. It sends a powerful messages to all people who have not watched it yet. I do know there are other Religions out there and I know that people worship different Gods. I will not sit here and push my religion on to you at all. But I do say this I am a Christian, No I don't go to church like most Christians do because of my anxiety but I plan on one day just getting up and moving my Anxiety aside and going to church with my sons. I have seen several Moving movies over the years and It makes me believe so much more that Yes there is a God.

The first movie that I have seen that moved me was "The Passion of the Christ" by Mel Gibson. That movie actually made me believe more that there was a God only because I wound up at a Catholic church that I was going to about 8 years ago and had a vision. The vision I had was being in Roman times when Jesus walked with the people. I saw him carry that cross down the path to where he was to be Crucified on it. I watched in horror what they did to him in my vision and I watched his death as it is told in the bible. I watched every second of his pain and felt all my sins be released so that I can be free and repent. From then on out I believed in our savior and I felt an overwhelming joy as I finally embraced him for the first time in my life. Yes I was not a person for church because as a child I went to a Pentecostal church with my aunt. After my Grandma died I felt the holy ghost go through me at church and I was speaking in Tongues with my family around me.

I am a full believer in miracles and the faith that I have.. Things are not always what people make them out to be and like I said I am not here to push my faith on you at all. I am just telling that I believe in God and everything he stands for. I have fully given myself to him and I will not Renounce my faith in front of anyone because of the fact that I know he exists in all of us but there are a lot of us that have lost who we are. I have found myself and with my love and faith with God I know all things are Possible for me and my sons. I will not force my faith on them either but I will encourage them to Love god before they love anyone else. I will help them on their journey in finding him but it has to be their choice to believe. Which I feel they have not lost sight of that because a few weeks ago Sami was just telling me that he wants to be baptized in the church that he goes to.

Things are slowly changing for us and for the better I believe because we will prevail over all the horrors that come with life. We will come out on top of all of this because we are strong and we believe that life will run its course and God will open more doors for us when he is ready to do this. God gave me 4 amazing and most beautiful boys and I am more than thankful for them. I feel it is my duty to teach them how a woman should be treated and that life has more in store for them than what they think it does. God will help us down the path we are meant to be on. I will admit I lost my faith for years and years but I have finally come to realize that I never lost it I just chose to deny it. Now I know that I put my faith and my life in his hands and I pray every single night that he brings peace and love to my household.

Hello Weekend...

Good Morning, It is Saturday which means yesterday Christopher left to go spend the weekend with his daddy. Also Yesterday I took and made 4 loaves of Zucchini bread as well as a birthday cake. Who's birthday you might ask, Well Thursday Sept 4th was my bestie Angie's birthday. So Yesterday I got to Celebrate with her and I made her a cake and we turned all the lights out when she got here and we sang happy birthday to her as soon as she walked into the door. I couldn't buy her anything so it was the next best thing for me to do for her. Today at 5:30 the kids have a fun thing with their church that they will be going to and the Adults will have some peace of mind lol. While the kids are gone I have a date with my boyfriend going for a walk Rain or Shine. Last night he came to spend time with me and my kids while waiting on Angie to get here to surprise her with her cake.

Its been a long week for us and I'm thankful that its over and that there's another school week coming up. Sunday Morning and Night the kids have Church as well and they love their churches. They attend 2 different ones a week and they love it so much. I'm proud of my boys and who they have became and where they are going in life. I found a Free Karate that I am trying to get Sami into and I know he is going to love it. Also I am trying to get ahold of the Asian Student Association of WCU to find him a Mentor that is also Chinese to teach him about his culture and the chinese way. I have Amazing friends and family that have been here to support me in the last year with everything.

When we find the way we will have a new addition to our family, You might ask what would that be? Well we are working on getting the boys their own bunny that they can name and help take care of. I am working on teaching them Responsibility and respect for others as well as animals. They are amazing boys but still need some help in some areas. Sami had his very first field trip yesterday and he went to the Mountain State Fair. When he came home he said he had such an amazing day and when I read his folder it said the same thing. He is doing so well so far this year but like they say this is only the Honeymoon period. Soon I want to get to the point where I can wean him off of his meds and find all Natural ways to help him with his Focus as well as his behavioral issues. Wish us luck on that area.

I hope you all have a wonderful day today as well as a wonderful night tonight.

Whew! What a Week

Hey guys sorry its been a while lol. But What a week we have had, First my boyfriend got sick Last Wednesday then my son Elijah got sick on Saturday and on Sunday my son Samuel started running the fever so we decided to go to the hospital. Both boys were Diagnosed with Strep so we had to kick it in the butt while it was still early. Elijah wound up missing school yesterday to be safe because he had the worst of it all. Thankfully both kids are finally better but still on their antibiotics so that we make sure we get rid of it all the way so that Christopher don't get sick as well as my mom and Breanna. Things have been going great so no fear with anything there. It is Wednesday so Its Christopher's dads day to come and pick him up so we will see if he actually does it! Really I'm not going to call him to see if he is coming though I'm going to leave that up to him.

I hope everyone has had a good week other than my kids getting sick as well as my boyfriend. Things were crazy for the weekend but we managed to get through it like we do everything else. As long as you stay positive about everything you do then you will be fine. I stay positive on everything here lately because its the only way to go anymore. Make sure that you always tell your loved ones that you love them every single day and night. Never go to bed mad at your kids or significant other because you don't know what the next day will bring at all. Also make sure you take care of your kids every single day because they need you and they love you even if you know it or not. They depend on you to be healthy and eating right for them always make sure you give them those 3 food groups every single day, You want your kids to grow up healthy and strong.

Another good piece of advice I have learned a lot lately, Before you go into a relationship with anyone make sure you love yourself and your good with yourself before you try to love anyone else. I have a great relationship with a great guy that loves me for who I am and loves my sons for who they are as well. Its always nice to finally get out of that pattern you are in with guys and finally find that one person who makes you feel worth every second of their time. Trust me I learned that I first have to love myself before I can love anyone else and that is what broke the pattern of abuse. I'm proud of who I have become since I left my ex boyfriend because I am better off without him. He trys so hard to take me down but he can keep trying because I have found that I am so much stronger lately. Two of my exes are actually still trying to tear me down one is trying to hack my stuff, the other is sending guys from his work to my house to ask me out.. Not happening guys I am stronger than you and I have broke free from the cycle that you have had me in. I hope everyone has an Amazing and most Wonderful day today and Please Kiss your kids and hold them tight cause you never know what the next day will bring.